Letter 101

Dear asshole,

I haven’t slept in days. But I’ve been losing sleep over you for years. I read some old letters, the ones in the middle. The ones where I took all the blame. I held on tightly, white knuckled love. Because I could feel you slipping away. I thought you needed space. But what I was really feeling was you fucking, some other girl. I can still see her face, I think about her every day. I couldn’t be sure, but my gut knew. My tight and heavy chest knew. Remember that one time you took all our photos down in your house? You said it was because it made you sad after you flirted with her and I caught you. You took them down so I wouldn’t be in your head when you were in her. And still I saved you, I fought endlessly to build a family, a happy home. and you were just the big bad wolf.

Don’t Love, me